Memory update
May. 8th, 2011 10:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
myroyalnameI feel kind of behind, because I haven't said how certain memories have been affecting Natalia. NEEDLESS TO SAY, Natalia's significant positive memory of being defended by her people was more of a significant negative because I really forgot how badly suddenly having her life ripped up in front of her felt in game.
Then I went and rewatched that cutscene, and was like, "L-Lol... That's not a significantly positive memory at all!"
I mean, luckily, Natalia wasn't eager to take that memory, because it was part of Three's game. So, I put this off for awhile. Before she realized she couldn't just avoid a memory out of guilt for her team. So, her current state, as a conglomeration of all of her memories are:
- Luke made a positive change
- She can also bully Luke into doing things he doesn't like
- Guy is also a very kind person
- Yeah, she was kind of a jerk about his gynophobia
- But had changed her mind when he was comforting her about her father...?
- She is clingy to Asch because every memory she's had of him, she's been clingy, and she doesn't know why. She assumes she loved him, not, you know, "HE REMEMBERS ME AGAIN OMG"
- Though she does know he's the one who made the promise, because Luke only knows it because of previous memories of her telling him about it
- OMG WHO AM I?
Basically, while her initial opinions on people are still the same, she's suddenly learned she's not who she thinks she is. This is more shocking for her than it is in canon, because in canon, Natalia can at least be pacified that she has all those memories with King Ingobert, and hopefully he won't reject her? She can recognize that he was uncomfortable with their exchange in the courtroom. And she also knows that she was raised to be Princess Natalia.
Now? She isn't so sure about that anymore. Luke did reassure her that he and Asch only know her as Natalia, but she can't be sure that she wasn't in on this somehow, that she didn't know at some point. And if she didn't know, she is also worried about the parents she was stolen from, and what kind of place would allow something so cruel? She's a huge mix of emotions, as her previously solid idea of who she was in a past life (though she can't remember how to be a princess at all) has been shattered. She doesn't know who she is at all, since her memories are so limited.
So, in all...
+ Natalia has leveled up! She's gained a new skill, DEPRESSION. But she has no room for it.
- Delete SELF-CONFIDENCE?
- SELF-CONFIDENCE was deleted!
She will have an aversion to being called Princess if she thinks about it too hard, and will ask for people to not call her that. Though, she isn't sure if she should let people call her Natalia either. She will also be a bit more avoidant as time goes on to people she knows are from her world.
Then I went and rewatched that cutscene, and was like, "L-Lol... That's not a significantly positive memory at all!"
I mean, luckily, Natalia wasn't eager to take that memory, because it was part of Three's game. So, I put this off for awhile. Before she realized she couldn't just avoid a memory out of guilt for her team. So, her current state, as a conglomeration of all of her memories are:
- Luke made a positive change
- She can also bully Luke into doing things he doesn't like
- Guy is also a very kind person
- Yeah, she was kind of a jerk about his gynophobia
- But had changed her mind when he was comforting her about her father...?
- She is clingy to Asch because every memory she's had of him, she's been clingy, and she doesn't know why. She assumes she loved him, not, you know, "HE REMEMBERS ME AGAIN OMG"
- Though she does know he's the one who made the promise, because Luke only knows it because of previous memories of her telling him about it
- OMG WHO AM I?
Basically, while her initial opinions on people are still the same, she's suddenly learned she's not who she thinks she is. This is more shocking for her than it is in canon, because in canon, Natalia can at least be pacified that she has all those memories with King Ingobert, and hopefully he won't reject her? She can recognize that he was uncomfortable with their exchange in the courtroom. And she also knows that she was raised to be Princess Natalia.
Now? She isn't so sure about that anymore. Luke did reassure her that he and Asch only know her as Natalia, but she can't be sure that she wasn't in on this somehow, that she didn't know at some point. And if she didn't know, she is also worried about the parents she was stolen from, and what kind of place would allow something so cruel? She's a huge mix of emotions, as her previously solid idea of who she was in a past life (though she can't remember how to be a princess at all) has been shattered. She doesn't know who she is at all, since her memories are so limited.
So, in all...
+ Natalia has leveled up! She's gained a new skill, DEPRESSION. But she has no room for it.
- Delete SELF-CONFIDENCE?
- SELF-CONFIDENCE was deleted!
She will have an aversion to being called Princess if she thinks about it too hard, and will ask for people to not call her that. Though, she isn't sure if she should let people call her Natalia either. She will also be a bit more avoidant as time goes on to people she knows are from her world.